I MATTER

Do you know what hurts most?
When they make everything about themselves
When your life is a dull spark to them
When they demand to be a priority
When they drain you
When you start feeling emotionless.

It hurts
when they don’t realize you hurt too
When you have no one to wipe away your tears
When you are treated like you are random.

Do you know what I want?
Are you really a best friend or a lover?
I want to be specific, not random
*I want to matter*
I want to feel the care before the love

I want to be treated like a queen
I want to be someone’s obsession
Not sending serial killer vibes,
But I want you to really really want me

I want clingy,
I don’t mean suffocate me
I mean I want you to want me, badly
Not that much, coz I might choke
I want you to want me more

It sucks being alone
When you lose everyone in a chain
When you have no one to talk to
When your heart so desperately needs attention

I want a hug,
I want you to whisper in my ear
I want to hear you say it
You matter, yes,
I want to matter

I want o.have someone to look forward to texting
Checking up on
I want to be restless when I have no means to contact you
I want to matter, as I will show you that you matter

Muthoni Murigi
@$heetheepoet