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We race claiming that the sky is our limit but it’s nothing more than a stop sign. Living in this perfect earth, this wholesome alternate dimension,a world where we win, but in this dimension we are too afraid to face it.
Let’s talk about love and efforts for a change. We are all familiar with the phrase,”I will love you to the moon and back” and we’ve all bought this knowing it’s impossible both literally and figuratively.
We demand love that doesn’t exist,love like in the soap operas, love like that of Tesa and Haudin, boundless, dangerous and real. We are blinded by expectations and words.
“I love you”  how many times have you been told this, words that are just heard,words that are intangible. Stop using words to express it, I can’t feel it,I can’t touch the words…and this is where the efforts come in.
Let me.ask.you all a question,do you put efforts in relationships that you wish you hadn’t?
I won’t say that I love you to the moon and back, here’s is my personal favourite phrase,I’ll love you to the end of time!. How hard is it to live in the moment, appreciate each other in the moment?
Relationships are a two way show,minus the audience, sometimes we put efforts on one side, we want to risk it all, sacrifice it all for this one person that we end up losing ourselves in the process,we break,we hurt,we bleed,we shed but they re blinded and full of this toxic personality that it don’t matter if it ain’t them.
We make efforts for nothing but here’s something that you should all learn,
Never ever regret being there for someone, standing up for someone, helping someone, coz in this life we need each other to survive.
We have all watched movies involving the world’s end and that all need someone to help each other figure it out,each other to survive.
It ain’t written,it’s just common knowledge.
We may lose ourselves trying to find someone that ain’t there,waste our efforts trying to fix and mend broken hearts but what if they don’t want to be fixed?
Loyalty comes with efforts and we make efforts for who we love. Loyalty is Rae,true genuine love is rare,open efforts are rare,if you find them,keep them.

@sheetheepoet
Muthoni Murigi

There is a God
A God that turns our cries into laughter
A God that listens and answers
There is a God
A God that paves and gives us shelter
A God that loves us without filters

He listens to the silent cries
He watches our moody days
A God that shileds us from the unending storm
A storm brought about by lust,hatred,unforgiveness and injustice
A storm that we try so hard not to evade
Feelings that we term as human nature,
Feelings that the Lord our God knows nothing about
Feelings that destroy but we are blind and hide behind curtains.

There is a God
Who knows our inner cries
A God that watches us sleep
A God that know no orphans
A God that is not racist
A God that sees us all as one

We fail to worship while our leaders spend to build us holy places to say thankyou,we see as a burden
We fail to remove our shoes as we step on holy ground
We are blinded as we play dice and gamble like those underneath the cross of Jesus gambling for his clothes
We fail to pay tithe for worldly pleasures

But there is a God
A God that forgives all our trespasses
A God that sees through our cloaks
A God that has limitless chances to forgive and bless
There is a God
A God that has no ego,but we are all defined by pride as we fail to worship,as we fail to get down on our knees in church claiming it’s hectic, painful,
A God that was crucified on the cross for our sins and did not say a word ,a God that endured the pain for us all.
There is a God
A God that brought us all into this earth with different reasons and put us here giving us a life of purpose
A life that we don’t have to pay for,
A God that gives without expecting anything in return
A God that is a God
A God that we are meant to worship, not only in our darkest times but when we are living our best lives
A God that knows no difference between refugees and the president, difference between the orphans and the wealthy, a God that gives with open arms.

Will you worship?

@sheetheepoet
Muthoni Murigi

You ever heard that quote on when life gives us lemons? Yeah you make lemonade,some will choose to peel down will choose to cut.
You see life has a different meaning to everyone,love has a different approach to by everyone.
Ride or die, for life?
This feeling that we claim to understand,this feeling that we claim to give and experience,what exactly is love?That outburst of hormones and wierd tingling sensation in your mind,heart,stomach when you see this one person, love is a feeling that can only be felt by the purest of hearts.

We have turned the definition of love to a transaction, we gamble for love, we betray and destroy for love.

Let’s dig deeper,from personal experience I am not sure I’ve experienced love,maybe coming from my side only,that one sided feel you feel me, I can’t write and fake having been loved and I mean real love from anyone.
Love shouldn’t be painful, actually love should heal. You know, love should build you up,fill you up not control you.

From people around me,I don’t quite get what love really is! Is it staying when you have no reason to stay, sticking around no matter how much they push you away for you, intimacy because apparently we tend to measure love these days, by intimacy, if sex is not involved you call that pure feeling,that other person pouring themselves out for you a scam.

Do you believe in love? Personally I do actually, I believe that no one is  too miserable and unfortunate not to experience it. We all have a shot at it actually, no! We have many shots at it,you just have to have a specific and straight aim.

I would write and tell you that love is the greatest feeling you can ever experience but I’m not so sure, because I’m not so sure either. We all have been hurt by this love feeling, you actually deserve better,I deserve better.

We tend to live a lie for actually a long time, claiming “he loves me”, “she loves me”. Sometimes you don’t deserve closure for getting hurt from he/she who hurt you, you actually deserve closure from you,this saying from experience.

A short story wouldn’t hurt!
So I thought I loved this guy trust me I was all in for him for years, it was all roses and daisies till I just realized that I was in it alone. My best friend advised me a lot to leave the guy that he was using me and all but I still chose to stay. We fell off and always we’d get back together till I realized that he wasn’t in love with me,he just didn’t want to lose me.

You see people think love is always staying together, a solid relationship that most people chose to make it public.
Sometimes we want to be wanted,we want to be needed but what we get is not love,maybe attention, people driven to you by lust but that is not love.

Have you realized that most young women are following the old,dad aged men!
We have forgotten what love really is, now we look where money is involved, attention is given and publicity is guaranteed, failing to see the repercussions this has.

We all want to feel something,we all want to have what we see on social media,what other have, that overwhelming love,is it really worth it? Because trust me you get with someone maybe not planning to love them but it just happens,this is what love is, unplanned unclear love doesn’t have to be perfect,love is not scripted for us to get chained to a rythm we see others follow.

Actually love is a feeling undefined in nature, abused by most and taken for granted by the majority,
Love is actually a command ment for us to share,to give, everyone deserves a shot at it. Yes we do chose whom to love but have you just randomly just felt something for some random person,not infatuation but really feeling something, a tingle and chill all through your bidy,your heart pounding at the thought and sight of them, that is love undefined, you just feel it and you’ll know.

We fail to see the light till we become blind. We are all given the ability to love trust me that feeling is worth it.

Thank you
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@Muthoni Murigi
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Sometimes we are too scared to see what’s right in front of us. We are blind to realize that we’ve lost something worth.
The generation we live in is driven by the crowd, monkey see,monkey do. We are afraid to walk in our own footsteps,too afraid to be judged,too afraid to fail and to fall.
Sucked up by the internet, accounts on all social media platforms. You see we are a “lost” generation no longer bound by tradition just driven by lust and curiosity.

Let’s talk about the early pregnancies we see, young, and I say really young girls already called mothers, all for what? Curiosity killed the cat as they say and trust me I am not trying to be Shakespeare here but that curiosity might just kill you, literally and figuratively.
The today parents too afraid to have that sex conversation with their children, what is everyone so ashamed of? Judgment I suggest.
Life isn’t given to us to skip stages, we have go all the way and whatever is in this topic everyone is going to find out whether with help or once again driven by curiosity.

So yesterday I had a sex talk with a friend and let me tell you guys, as much as sex is abused out here by this generation,there are still few real and willing to wait people.
I keep telling myself that good things take time…this is not just a good thing but an amazing experience, to intertwine two souls, this amazing joyland, trust me when I say that sex is like a ride on a rollercoaster, it’s a drive and from this generation it’s a drive of lust not the feeling we define as love.

Faces glued to phone screens taking selfies, chatting and making friends online, we forget that people actually exist in this world, people we can actually have a one on one conversation with, make friends naturally not having friends overseas whom we never even seen neither met.

What exactly does this generation want, love or sex?, Internet or physicality?
You know we define ourselves s a generation to bring change but actually the change we bring is the negative type of change.

What do you want to be in five year time? Where do you want to have gone?What exactly do you want to achieve? We fail to define the key words these days.
The generation we put all our faith in, the generation that will one day bring forth a president,is the same generation you find day drinking at 10 in the morning, partying any day of the week, following and sending hateful messages to people, celebrities who have actually made it.

I watch, I listen and what shocked me the most is the topic and memes on incest!
What exactly is happening, people are now not just fornicating but goofing around intimately with their cousins,uncles and all relatives.
Doesn’t this not shock you! Coz it does scare me.
How on earth are you attracted intimately to family.lets just end this here because it’s actually gross to even be thinking about it.

Let’s come down to this question I know you all knew I’d ask.
What is your definition on sex?
An act of intimacy,
My definition of sex is actually quite simple, sex is not making love, sex is an act of pleasure that two consenting adults choose to indulge in.
I refuse to define it as making love because two people can actually have sex, no strings attached,zero feelings, just the act, pleasure and they are done, but making love…
Think about that.
What exactly is it for you?
The sex, the act itself
Or making love?

I once asked a friend to tell me what she knows about contraceptives, all kinds and wierdly all she said was, “zote ziko na side effects but I prefer a condom”
People chose what contraceptives to use, and we all already know that right now no girl purchases her own plan B pill, the guys have it covered.

My uncle asked me a question, why would a guy love you enough to want and to have sex with you but not enough to want to have a fruit of that same act?
You see men will always be men, and at the end of the day they don’t have any burden or regrets like the ladies will do.

What exactly do you gain from sex, and what do you give? You want to feel the man pulsalating in you, or you want the foreplay in sex? What exactly do we look for and look forward to in sex?

One thing I can say for free,you will experience all types of sexual pleasure but with the right person it will be something else, something new something that you will have never felt before.
Multiple sex partners don’t make you a Pro in that entire sector, actually that makes you a “slut” if I may,
Sex is only making love when it’s consented, when real love is involved,when you actually want to not have to.
But what exactly do we know about real love, well,that’s is our next talk.
Thank you.leave  your own comments  and views on sex, love and anything else worth talking about,

@$heetheepoet
Muthoni Murigi

I listen to silence
Making so much noise
My eardrums breaking
This must be a plague

Hands covering my ears
Lonely kid at corner
No one comes
They just leave and reduce

The walls closing in
I scream,unheard
They all walk by
Wierd, they refer and stare

I want to fight for family
Strikes the big bench
My sentencing stated
Alone for life

I am broken
Some rules they stated
A mistake to save a life
Clearly misunderstood

The noise finally stops
All I hear is this void
I wish I could be out
I wish I wasn’t alone

It finally kicked!
The feeling of a creature growing inside
Soon to deliver
Feelings of a lone wolf

I watch the sunset and touch my belly
My inner thoughts still roaming
I feel the kick again
I want to let go

The yellow rays touch me from within
This overgrown urge
I love him right?
Is this what live feels like?

My thoughts make my belly grow
Eating me up from the inside
It’s an alien feeling
Something unwanted maybe

Do I give in?
Expression end in despair
Distant from the outburst
I should have bottled it in

@$heetheepoet

Should I love?
I think I should hate more
Wrongly defined and defiled
Words keep escaping

Use the word psychopath
Use the word lunatic
Use the word dumb
I still stand tall

A spark to a full blown fire
Confidence to antisocial
I hide behind the curtain
Listening to the chants and rants

My suit all black
My Cape small but fits
My chins stretch
I smile.for the crowd

I finally made it
My mama crying, first bench
I stride down
Holding my gown from the side

My first lady smiles
Flowers upon the stage
Learnt to walk in heels
It’s my graduation ceremony

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